I Shouldn't Have...

Aren't memories supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
I just can't figure it out
Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Confession of a Shopaholic

wah2...bln ni sgt byk berbelanja...tp agak bangge sbb sumenye beli ngan harge yg sgt murah...hehe

firstly aku beli digital camera olympus...mmg dh lame niat nk beli camera waterproof sbb senang nk bwk travel, especially kalo gi pantai...x yah ulang alik gi chalet lps berposing2an di tepi pantai...x gitu? eheh...setelah usha2 harge kt kedai ngan ebay, aku wat keputusan nk beli Olympus Mju Tough 6000...harge plg murah around RM850-900 kalo online...kalo kt kedai lg mahal...tp alhamdulillah, seblom aku beli online, ditakdirkn aku ke KLIA sbb nk anta kazenku - Ya, nk blk Cairo...tetibe tenampak booth jual camera yg wat sale besar2an...hoho...bersinar2 mateku...tp sales girl tu kate Tough 6000 dh abeh stock...br je nk sedey, tetibe die kate ade Tough 6010 yg lg besh n dijual ngan harge same ngan Tough 6000 iaitu RM899! harge kt pasaran plg2 pn RM1300-1500! pastu free memory card 8gb! tripod! casing! screen protector! *pengsan*

setelah consult ummi, c.wis, jihan & hampir sume family aku yg ade kt situ, aku pn melayang2 gi atm, kua duit & beli la camera tu...ihik....ni la rupe parasnye -


x la cantik sgt...tp aku suke sbb die waterproof (up to 3m), shockproof (up to 1.5m), freezeproof (up to -10 celcius...pastu ayah aku kate, "boley la bwk gi Sweden"....hahaha...tah bile taon nk gi Sweden tah), dustproof, 2x antishake, face & smile recognition, beauty shot & macam2 lg...weee...~

ni plak cth gamba yg amek dlm air....ahaks....besh2


ok...setelah ade camera yg besh, kene la ade casing yg besh juge kn...ye, saye tau, casing percume kn ade...tp, x cantek! muahahahaha.....so sy telah membeli casing yg super duper hensem ni kt lelong.com.my -




white leather...hensem kn? kn? hihihihihi....original Olympus juge...harge pasaran RM188...tp die jual RM49...jimat lg! =8)


yg ke-3, aku beli perfume Fantasy by Britney Spears -

memule beminat nk beli ni mase gi beli lip gloss kt SaSa...tp x beli lg...pastu mase jenjalan kt Alamanda ngan Hami, skali lg teruje nk beli sbb ade diskaun RM20...yg 50ml RM140 ++ je....pk punye pk x jd beli sbb teringat perfume lain yg bebotol2 lg x abeh gune...huhu...blk umah je tros bukak ebay n tgk mane taw ade yg miniature nye (so x de aa rase besalah sgt kalo beli)...ahaks...skali jumpe yg 30ml RM69 je! *pengsan lg*...gile byk beze! sbb org yg jual tu beli kt US...then die jual kt sini...tu aa dpt murah....*oh, sungguh bahagia!*


ok...itu saje...yg lain beli bende kecik2 je...x payah aa cite kot...lalalala...~


so bape sume aku banje? RM899 + RM 49 + RM 69 = priceless...muahahahaha

Jun 2009

wah...lamenye x update....

hehe

entry kali ni nk cite psl bln jun 2009 yg sgt besh...

Minggu Pertama - Family trip to Beijing

first skali, awal jun aritu aku n family gi Beijing...annual family trip....sgt sgt besh...memule sampai sane, aku xde aa terpikat sgt...tp dh 2-3 ari kt sane, aku mule rase seronok....yg plg aku suke psl China - dorangnye lifestyle...dorang byk jln kaki / nek beskal...dorang nye makanan sume sihat2....dorang byk minum air kosong atau teh kosong tanpe gule....dorang slalu bersenam....bagos btol kn....n oleh sbb bende2 tu dh mmg care idop dorang, so dorang slambe je la wat...slalu je nampak pompan ayu2 pkai baju lawa2 kayuh beskal....maybe gak sbb faktor cuace yg still agak dingin walopon di musim summer....x cam kt mesia yg sentiase panas...(eheh...nk carik alasan la tu)....byk gak melawat tempat2 bersejarah n menarik kt sane...cam the Great Wall of China, Forbidden City, Tian'amen Square, Summer Palace, n of kos tmpt2 shopping yg maveles...hahaha....kesimpulannye, gi Beijing adelah sgt seronok! hehe...kalo blom tgk gamba2, boley gi kt akunye facebook atau flickr...(malas nk upload byk2 kt sini)

Minggu Kedua - Pulang ke kg halaman

seminggu lps blk dr Beijing, kitorang blk kg plak...pn sgt seronok sbb ni la first time kitorang blk utk thn 2009...last blk mase raye aji bln 12 taon lps...so mmg melepas kerinduan btol la...hehe...aku blk dlm seminggu la...macam2 aktiviti berjaye dijalankn macam gi breakfast kt kedai kak wok, gi pasar borong wakaf che yeh, gi amek kazen2 kt skolah, aktiviti mkn2 kt umah auntie, bergelak ketawe mengenang kesah lalu, dll...walopon ade gak peristiwa sadis yg melande, tp malas nk cite kt sini...sbb entry ni utk yg hepi2 saje ok =)

Minggu Ketiga - Majlis perkahwinan di Kedah

third, seminggu lps blk dr klate, aku teman kak faridah & family gi Kedah lak utk majlis perkahwinan sedare aku...hehe...bejalan lg...aku sorang je yg dpt gi sbb yg lain sume keje / ade hal...pn sgt besh sbb aku mmg suke bejalan...so x kesah la gi mane pn sume besh...muahahaha....gamba2 leh tgk kt sini

Minggu Keempat - Memasuki alam pekerjaan

fourth, di penghujung bln jun, aku start keje...hehe...aku dh cite psl keje ni kt entry yg seblom ni...aku dpt jd lecturer kt INTEC - International Education Centre...tmptnye adelah same ngan tmpt yg aku blaja dulu...UiTM seksyen 17...sbb INTEC, faculty of education n faculty of music share tempat yg same...so aku dh knal la selok belok kawasan tu...aku kene ajar bdk2 yg amek A-level...mostly bdk2 medic yg nk fly gi Ireland/PMC...ade gak yg nk gi Manipal/Melaka...mule2 sgt cuak nk aja bdk2 INTEC...then kuatkn semangat n cube sebaik yg mungkin....br 2 minggu msk klas n alhamdulillah stakat ni sume bejalan ngan lancar...harap2 aku dpt la jalankn tugas ni ngan baik...amin....~


so tu la antara kejadian2 yg telah terjadi di sekitar bln jun 2009 yg besh...ahaks...sekian time kaseh

Alhamdulillah

- kisah 1 -

syukur alhamdulillah sume berjalan ngan lancar...thesis dh anta (so insyaallah boley grad sem ni..hehe)...mmg sebenanye dh pasrah kalo kene repeat 1 sem pn..sbb sume wat last minute...kanak2 dirumah, jgn tiru perbuatan ini ok!

mase minggu2 terakhir klas aritu, sume dh pk psl nk apply keje or sambung study...sume pening...tp bile org tanye aku, aku just jwb, "nk dok umah je sepanjang bln 5...bln 6 br nk pk nk apply keje ape" *diikuti ngan gelak keji*

hehe...mmg tu je yg aku pk...lps dh pening2 muntah2 wat thesis, aku nk bermalas2an je kt umah...bile ayah tanye pn aku jwb camtu...hihi...tp, kite hanye mampu merancang, Tuhan lebih mengetahui kn =)

ari selase 2 minggu lps, aku, shima n aeisha gi swimming kt pool uitm...mase tu shima inform yg intec nk pkai lecturer english...tp aku awal2 reject...aku pk, tanak aa aja bdk2 intec...sume bijak pandai...so aku wat bodo je...esok nye aku saje2 je bitaw ummi psl intec tu...ummi kate try je la apply..ape salahnye...so ati aku pn terbukak la nk try anta resume...hehe...so ari khamis tu aku print resume n anta kt ofis intec...org tu kate kemungkinan interview ari selase n die soh prepare mock teaching utk 10 minit...aku sedikit cuak

blk tu aku bitaw ummi...n ummi aja tips2 utk interview & mock teaching tu...sbb ummi pn slalu interview org yg apply jd lecturer kt apb...berbekalkn tips2, nasihat2 & ajaran2 dr ummi, aku pn berase sedikit yakin utk gi interview tu...hehe

tp yg beshnye, sabtu tu aku n beberape gurls batch85 gi pd...oh sungguh seronok!! hihihi...aku x bitaw sesape pn psl interview yg akan dtg tu sbb segan...kalo x dpt kang malu je...hehe...aku juge agak cuak kalo muke jd sunburn melampau...kang x psl2 gi interview ngan muke cam kene panggang...seb baik aa idong je cam merah sket...ade aa gak ala2 clown aku aritu...ahaks

blk dr pd ahad tu, aku agak bz ngan hal family...so ari isnin tu br nk check blk sume sijil2 nk bwk gi interview esoknye...of kos la kene gi fotostat n mintak pengesahan...haa...br aa nk kalut kn...haihs...tp alhamdulillah sume settle aritu gak...mlm tu aku prepare teaching aids sbb ummi kate tu sgt penting...aku juge carik info psl intec, mane aa taw die tanye ape yg aku taw psl intec...xde aa aku terkebil2...hahaha...then aku selak2 blk notes psl teaching style n learning theories...hehe...otak dh berkarat nk kene polish blk...ummi ade gak bg soalan2 yg slalu ditanye, so aku practice jwpn2 yg aku rase logik so aku akan lebey prepare utk esok

pagi selase tu, ummi anta aku gi intec...aku pn tataw nape aku x cuak sgt...maybe sbb doa yg ummi bg + preparation + faculty aku sendiri...hehe...maybe sbb aku dh bese ngan tmpt tu, aku rase tenang je...logik x? ahaks

tp yg ngeri nye, msk2 je ofis hea intec, muke2 yg 1st aku nampak - sipi, epi, anis, naja...what??? tu sume adelah mereka2 yg sgt bijak pandai n sgt dikenali sbb aktif kt fac...haihs...rase cam harapan utk aku dh merudum jatuh...tp sbb dh smpai, aku pasrah je aa...duduk je, ade org kasi ketas sehelai, utk tulis essay...ahaks...seb baik soalan die yg aku dh prektis awal2..so alhamdullilah boley jwb ngan konfiden (TQ ummi!!)

then bermule la sesi interview...die panggil sorang2, start ngan naja (woot!) yg kt lua2 sume kate, "alaa...start ngan naja, jom la kite sume blk"...hahaha...ye, naja mmg hebat....mase tu ade 14 org kalo x salah aku, n 12 org coursemate aku..ahaks...sorang senior kitorang n sorang org lua...giliran aku plak hujung2...saat yg aku btol2 cuak ialah mase giliran org seblom aku dh smpai...mase tu br aa denyutan jantung aku jd laju lebey...tp perasaan cuak tu ilang bile start jwb soalan2 interview...alhamdulillah (aku siap pusing2 lg atas kusi yg aku dok tu...dh beberape saat br aku pasan aku dlm interview! huhu)

mock teaching pn berjalan ngan sgt lancar...alhamdulillah...tq ummi lg skali sbb soh prepare teaching aids...interviewer 5 org...n sume baik2...aku kua blk tu ngan senyuman..puas ati n sgt lega...kerani kt situ kate die akan call bile result dh kua...aku pn blk ngan hepi walopon tataw lg diterima kt x...hehe

ari jumaat, aku dpt call drp intec...die kate aku dh diterima jd lecturer tp die x leh konfem lg bile aku kene start...alhamdulillah...aku hepi sgt2...tros call ummi n ayah...5 minit lps ckp ngan ayah, aku dpt call drp auntie dd, die ckp congrats...wah...cepatnye berita dh smpai johor! haha

td aku call intec nk tanye psl details...tp die soh call ptg2 sket...sebenanye aku sedikit cuak ni...takot die soh start akhir bulan ni atau awal bulan dpn...sbb 31 may ni insyaallah kitorang nk gi beijing...seminggu....ayah dh ugut, kalo die kate kene start mase tu cemane? huhu...harap2 boley wat rayuan..amin...~

skang ni satria neo dh tebayang2 di mate...hhihihi

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- kisah 2 -

mase tgh tunggu giliran nk diinterview tu, aku dpt call drp dr akram...die penah upah aku check grammar utk research die dulu...kali ni die nk upah aku utk check grammar thesis student masters die...aku kate ok....td dh konfem kn charge ngan die...aku men tibai je letak rm4 utk 1 page...n aku dh contact student die tu...die akan kasi dienye thesis minggu ni, n aku akan cube check dlm mase seminggu...insyaallah...skali ade lg sorang call, nk soh check dienye gak...die nk kasi die nye minggu dpn...aku kate aa x leh lmbt sgt, takot x sempat siap sbb 31 may tu aku dh xde di s.alam...die kate maybe die leh bg aku ari isnin dpn...hmmm....alhamdulillah aa murah rezeki...tp kene keje kuat aa sket sbb kene check 2 thesis b4 gi beijing...harap2 sempat...amin...~

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- kisah 3 -

seblom aku dpt call drp intec yg kate aku diterima tu, aku dpt call drp sorang kerani kt intec...die tanye aku tanak ke wat klas tuisyen utk anak2 die? erk...x penah terpk la plak seblom ni...tp org dh offer, aku rase menarik gak tu...die kasi aku mase nk pk...aku dh diskas ngan ummi, n ummi kate elok aa tu org dh cari kite...ptg ni aku akan call puan nik tu...tp aku x bape sure psl charge...hurm...kene negotiate ngan die dulu aa kot...sbb mmg x penah terpk la plak nk aja tuisyen sblom ni...hehe...tp alhamdulillah peluang n rezeki dtg bergolek2...just kene prepare btol2 la nk aja tusyen...harap2 aku leh jlnkn tugas ni ngan sempurna...amin...~ =)

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yg pentingnye, stakat ni, aku blom tuka lg mind set aku drp student ke lecturer...ahaks...tp harap2 sume akan berjalan ngan lancar - lecturer, grammar checker, tuition teacher, traveller...doakn aku eh =)

Falling Slowly

yes...once again, I succumbed to the overpowering distractions...Astro, Facebook & some other blogs which I can’t resist to check every now and then…*pat on the back*

last nite I slept with a strong determination that I will spend this whole day finishing chapter 2 of my AE…n yet, when I woke up, what was the 1st thing I did? Internet…then? breakfast *duhh* then? sat in front of the tv & watched Astro…%@^%!*&^!

oh why oh why my willpower is that weak…huhu

but there’s one thing I didn’t regret about watching Astro just now…I watched a pretty great movie with nice songs in it…have u ever heard of the movie ‘Once’? It’s a beautiful Irish movie with the tagline – “How often do you find the right person?” yeah…the answer is so obvious =)

I don’t think everybody will like this kind of movie…particularly some people I know…hehe…but everyone has their own personal liking & who are we to judge that?

after watching that movie, I was determined to blog about one of the songs in that movie – ‘Falling Slowly’ originally written and performed by Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova, the lead actor and actress from that movie…quite talented huh…n apparently, this song won the best original song in the Oscar! =)

so here’s the song n the lyrics

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react

And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You’ll make it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black

Well you have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

nice rite? well, like I said, everyone is entitled to their own liking so no point in arguing over it if u loath it…ahaks ;p


now...I guess I better go back to my chapter 2...haihss...~ =(

mari kite berpartayy!

setelah beberape hari wat assignment + projek + AE + study utk test (ye la tu) = otak sudah semakin sewel

so ape org sewel akan wat? aku pn tataw...yg penting, org sewel x kn wat mende2 di atas lg dh...walopon banyaaaaaak lg mende yg blom siap...huahuahua...n utk melayan kesewelan ni, aku dgn senang atinye membace blog2 yg ade bejuta2 di alam siber ini...kemudian aku terjumpa pula laman web yang sangat menarik ini (perlukah berbahasa baku?) --> http://www.polyvore.com

gile besh website ni!! especially yg suke fesyen...korang leh mix n match pape je yg korang suke - baju, skirt, seluar, kasut, tudung, accessories & macam2 lg...pastu save...(err..apsal bile aku explain jd cam x menarik?) ahakss...xpe2...ape kate korang gi cube sendiri

oleh kerane tema MPG kitorang adelah masquerade (adeih...ngeri), aku imagine ape yg aku leh pkai n ape yg aku dh ade...pastu aku pilih dr senarai yg sgt byk...hasilnye...jeng jeng jeng.....~

amacam? ape pendapat korang? ok x? ade komen2 membine? hehe...so far aku dh ade dress, inner, kasut & rantai...xde aa sejibik camtu...iras2 aa...dinner MPG tu ujung bln ni...so byk lg mase nk carik mende2 lain tu


woii..pk psl assignments aa!!


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