Muara Hati

Saturday, 28 February 2009

a dream of longer silkier healthier & more manageable hair [tagged by eha]

bangun tido td, semangat nk wat ae dh membuak2...pastu gatal nk on9 dulu...ngengade gi check fb, fs ngan blog...last2 setelah 2 jam kemudian, ae langsong x sentuh lg...haihss...eha plak gi tag aku soh wat mende alah eha...kalo aku x grad sem ni sbb x siap ae, aku salahkn ko ok! muahahhahahaha

1.Someone tells you they love you, you say...

~ depends on the situation:
a) if its a girl friend or a family member...i would probably say it back (note - PROBABLY)
b) if its a guy friend...i would laugh
c) if its someone i like...i would feel hesitant to say it back....type it, maybe...but actually say takes time i guess

*gile ape siap wat list??*

the point is...its really hard for me to be frank about my feelings & emotions =(

2.If you won a lot of money on the lottery, what would you buy first?
~ world tour package! (quote eha - "pale hutak hang.. dh lah duit loteri tu harommm.. isk isk") hahahahhahaha XD

3.Do you miss anyone?
~ yessssssss (die x tanye miss sape kn?)

4.Who was driving the last time you were in a car?
~ jihan in her ViVi...cet....sume la nk bg name kt kete skang ni...tunggu aa aku ade kete...aku bg name Peah! huh

5.Do you like your bed?
~ oh yess...if only it is not as messy as now...haha

6.Will this weekend be a good one?
~ hopefully =)

7.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more?
~ owh...i think i can..but then again, nobody knows for sure aite....huhu

8.How is your hair?
~ just been shampooed & moisterized

9.Do you like your life as of now?
~ alhamdulillah...very the very! =)

10.Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
~ wish? hurmm....not really

11.Do you drink coffee?
~ of my fav drinks

12.Does anyone call you babe or baby?
~ my gurl friends

13.What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
~ zzzZZzzZzzz....~ (x penah2 tido awal)

14.Do you like surprises?
~ yes...if its a nice surprise...haha

15.What are your plans for the future?
~ huhu....not so sure yet

16.Have you ever set foot in a tanning bed?

~ x perlu la...ngeri tu nk msk dlm tu...lg pn tu sume keje mat saleh & minah saleh yg x bersyukur ngan kulit cerah dorang

17.Do you make your bed everyday?
~ eheh...nope

18.Your best friend tells you she is pregnant what is your reaction?
~ OMG!!! mcm ngeri gak lah sbb bfs sye sume x kawen lg.. hehe --> my reaction too

19.Do you like pasta?
~ like it? i LOVE it! haha

20.Whisper or shout?
~ both...for different purposes

21.Swim or run?
~ swim...swim...n swim 100000x

22.When did somebody tell you they loved you?
~ 2 days ago

23.Last person to annoy you?

~ myself! for my lack of self control...wuwu

24.Do you wish your hair was shorter or longer than it currently is?

~ longer...n silkier...n healthier...n more manageable...hahaha

25.Do you have a secret that less than 3 people know about?

~ i have a secret that no one knows!! :D --> saye juge! =) --> saye juge!!! XD

26.Have you ever had a phone conversation with someone who lived in a different state?

~ yup...i think its common now

27.Do you and your best friend have the same cell company?
~ perlu ke?

28.Are you good at persuading?

~ not really...i'm kinda afraid to persuade people...for example - what if they'll hate the thing i persuade them to buy?

29.Are there a lot of people in your house?

~ myself...jihan...boboy....abe ji....count urself...hehe

30.Does the same person call you every single day?

~ nobody calls me every single day

31.Last call received from who??

~ iwan...on my birthday...asking about a place in s.alam....without saying a word about my birthday! cisss

32.What are you doing tonight?
~ going out for a movie with my family =)

33.Do you have a guy friend you tell everything to?
~ iwan knows me quite well....but not EVERYTHING about me

34.Are you friends with more guys or girls?
~ hmm....about the same i guess...i feel comfortable with both genders

35. Tag 5 people
~ you, you, you, you & you ;p

Monday, 16 February 2009

feeling down

These past few weeks I've been feeling extremely down....

adj insecure [insiˈkjuə] :

1 unsure of oneself or lacking confidence. i.e "Whenever he was in a crowd of people he felt anxious and insecure."

2 not safe or firmly fixed. i.e "This chair-leg is insecure; an insecure lock."

adv inseˈcurely

n inseˈcurity

Kernerman English Learner’s Dictionary © 1986-2008 K Dictionaries Ltd and partners. All rights reserved.

sometimes...I tend to be very insecure...emotionally...n as stated in my previous post, I think too much about everything...n usually, I think for the worst....*sigh*

I'm afraid that people will dislike me...especially those whom I really care about...the matter is, when I really care about a particular person, I will try not to overly show it...I will show it as subtly as I can bcoz I'm afraid they will be bored of me..I'm afraid they will loath me...I'm afraid they will think that I'm pathetic =(

what hurts the most is, when the person I care about does not care about kills me that the person does not enjoy my company....n would rather be with everyone else but me (despite all the "subtle" things I did...haha) *OMG...I am pathetic!* especially if we're really close n suddenly everything changes without me knowing the reason why...or when somebody else comes into the picture n suddenly, things go differently...why it has to be this way? *my heart shattered to pieces n I'm not being dramatic* maybe I shouldn't have cared about a person too much to avoid from feeling this miserable...or should I show my emotions excessively so that they will notice for sure? (I really don't think I can do that)


p/s: I don't know why I'm typing and sharing this...maybe as a result of me being overly insecure rite now...maybe I need to let it out...subtly

p/ss (is there such thing?): this entry is NOT about a boy...I repeat - NOT ABOUT A BOY...tq

Friday, 13 February 2009

Tagged by Eha (Kalsom)

Actually, I posted this tag on my Facebook...but as Eha had tagged me in her "My 25 Random Things", n I'm too lazy to think of other not-so-interesting facts about myself, I decided to plagiarize my own work...miahahaha...n to make it 25, I'll add 5 more facts in the end

p/s: it is understandable if anybody snooze off while reading this list...huhu

Rules: Here's my "20 things" list. If I tagged you, you are supposed to write a note with 20 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 20 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

1. I think too much about everything...n when I did something wrong or idiotic, it will be played in my head for millions of times...n I will never ever forget it

2. oh...I will forgive...but will never forget

3. Fall crazily in LURVE with Santorini Island, Greece after watching the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants...haha XD

4. I don't really like to share my emotions with anybody...even family...makes me feel kinda embarrassed

5. I am mood can swing 180 degree in a second

6. I'm SO afraid that I will not finish my academic exercise (research) in time...but do nothing to speed things up...aiyaa

7. had no experience of the growing pains of gigi geraham bongsu. (simply none am I am worried!) <-- OMG Ayie! exactly the same with me!! huhu 8. I hate people who spit in public! pengotor btol!!! 9. I'm still dreaming of going to Disneyland...especially the one in California 10. unlike Ayie, Peoz, Hami & most other people, I gained weight A LOT in the past few years...I mean A LOT! cc(_ _')cc

11. I don't like to hear people membebel but sometimes can't help from doing so myself

12. too ashamed of being perceived as ridiculous in front of people...sometimes it makes me appear standoffish

13. loves baking but indifferent about cooking

14. believe that I'm 50% like my father & 50% like my mother...physically, mentally & psychologically

15. I care a lot of other people's feeling...sometimes too much that I tend to turn down my own feelings

16. tried almost every product to make my hair & skin healthier & flawless but failed miserably...haha

17. I can tolerate children & babies much much better than adults...I just fond of them!

18. still supresses her desire of wanting to become a kindergarten teacher <-- woot!! another similarity with Ayie!

19. also secretly want to be a pastry chef...but maybe its too far to reach 20. I'm so grateful of the life I'm living now...hoping that my future will be as great as now =)

*the extra 5*

21. if there's such a job as 'Paid Traveller', I'll be the 1st one to apply...seriously!

22. totally agree with a saying - "a gurl can never have too many shoes"....haha...handbag as well! XD

23. my perfect dream house would be a cottage by a cool crystal-clear lake, surrounded by green gigantic mountains and under the perfect blue sky with fluffy clouds....too much to ask? =)

24. I've always been in awe (and a little bit jealous) with people who know the right thing to say at the right time

25. I used to firmly believe in 'love at the first sight', I doubt it...haihs...~

people to tag - everybody who is reading this...yes...that means U! (since this is a re-write thingy, I don't think I have the energy to tag 20 people again) cakap je la malas kn...hahaha

Wednesday, 4 February 2009

psst...I have a Crush on...

February....the month of romance & love (for some people)....the most unique month (bcoz some years it has 28 days...some years 29 days...what's not unique about that?)...n the most important month in my life...for those who can't figure out why, maybe u're not that close to me...haha conjunction with this "special" month, I would like to share with u a list of hotties I have a crush on...I know...I know...I'm already 24 this what??? this is purely for fun =)

this list is not in order of preference...wait...maybe just the 1st one *wink* more thing...these are all celebrities...becaaaauuse...I CAN'T and WILL NOT expose my list of 'realistic' crush...EVER! haha

- Jensen Ackles -

Full Name : Jensen Ross Ackles
D.O.B : 1 March 1978
Born : Texas, USA
Descent : Irish, English, Scottish, American
Crush Since : First episode of Supernatural played on AXN (somewhere in 2006)
Trivia : "I'm a mad Gummi fan. I always have Gummis in my trailer. But you can't eat too many because then you get Gummi tummy, and that's no good. I can't believe I'm saying this"

- Chace Crawford -

Full Name : Christopher Chace Crawford
D.O.B : 18 July 1985
Born : Texas, USA (Texas too? wow...Texas guys are hot or what?!!)
Descent : American
Crush Since : Last Gossip Girl
Trivia : His younger sister, Candice, is Miss Missouri USA 2008

- Utt -

Full Name : Greg Uttsada Panichkul
D.O.B : 3 September 1974
Born : California, USA
Descent : Thai-Chinese
Crush Since : long long time ago...probably back in 1998
Trivia : He's been the longest running and most popular MTV Asia vj to date (11 years)

- Geoff -

Full Name : Geoffrey Michael A. Eigenmann (Geoff is pronounced as 'Jeff')
D.O.B : 23 March 1985
Born : Philippines
Descent : Spanish, American, Pinoy
Crush Since : 2005...when his drama 'Hiram' was being played in Astro
Trivia : I like to call him 'Prince Chubby'...his nickname in 'Hiram' cute! =)

- Dennis Oh -

Full Name : Dennis Joseph O'Neil Jr.
D.O.B : 29 August 1981
Born : Texas, USA (what did I tell u about Texas Guys?)
Descent : Korean, American
Crush Since : 2007...when I saw the above picture (the 1st one) on the Net
Trivia : started modeling at the age of 16 as he applied for a model contest he had heard from the radio by chance while working out in his basement

- Dermot Mulroney -

Full Name : Dermot Mulroney (duhh)
D.O.B : 31 October 1963 (he may be old now...but in my heart, he's still 'Micheal' in My Best Friend's Wedding...haha)
Born : Virginia, USA
Descent : Irish, American
Crush Since : My Best Friend's Wedding
Trivia : Good friend with Brad Pitt & born on the same day as Rob Schneider

- Diether -

Full Name : Diether Ocampo Pascual
D.O.B : 19 July 1976
Born : Philippines
Descent : Pinoy
Crush Since : Sana'y wala ng wakas (2003)
Trivia : his new girlfriend (Rima Lorza Ostwani) is a resemblance of his ex-wife (Kristine Hermosa)...coincidence? =)

- James Dean -

Full Name : James Byron Dean
D.O.B : 8 February 1931
D.O.D : 30 September 1955 (sob..sob)
Born : Indiana, USA
Descent : British, American
Crush Since : watched 'East of Eden' in 2005
Trivia : His favorite drink was coffee and his favorite ice cream flavors were coffee and raspberry

- Shah Rukh Khan -


no...seriously...I think he's gorgeous...there...u can laugh ur head off....I don't care.. XP

Full Name : Shahrukh Khan
D.O.B : 2 November 1965
Born : New Delhi, India
Descent : Indian
Crush Since : from Dilwale & Dil To Pagal Hai
Trivia : was not very good at Hindi in school, until his mother promised to take him to the cinema if he passed. As he loved films, he got top marks from then on

there...what do u think? hehe...yes...there are so many more handsome men out there...but this is MY list...n I think they are simply gorgeous...perfect in their own way

now...plz excuse me while I sip a cup of nescafe n drool over more pics of these gorgeous men...lalala...~
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