Bicara hati

Ya Allah
Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui
Apa yang terbaik untukku
Sesungguhnya aku hanyalah insan yang serba kekurangan
Semoga Engkau tunjukkanlah kepadaku apa yang terbaik untukku
Supaya aku tidak akan membuat pilihan yang salah
Ya Allah
Berikanlah ku kekuatan
Untuk menerima segala ketentuanMu
Dengan redha dan tabah
Semoga aku akan sentiasa dapat melihat yang tersirat di dalam yang tersurat
Semoga aku tidak akan mengeluh dengan ujianMu
Amin amin ya rabbal 'alamin...

The need to be stronger

I wish I'm not this easy to cry...
I wish I'm not this sensitive...
I wish I don't care this much...
I wish I can just let it be...

But...

I can't stop the tears from rolling...
I can't pretend to be okay with it...
I can't stop thinking about it...
I just can't...I just can't...

Oh dear heart....promise me you'll be stronger

Oh Allah...grant me strength so I won't hurt other people with my weaknesses

Remember...

A Promise to Myself

Today, 10/11/12, I've made a promise to myself to try harder....no, to try the hardest!

I've realised that before this I kept on resorting to the same way, the same route that has been pushing me further and further (but definitely not in my desired direction)...there were so many signs practically thrown to my face...though I noticed and captured them, my grips were momentarily.

So today, I pray that Allah will bless this resolution of mine...let today be the starting point of a new, better, beshesh me...amin amin ya rabbal alamin...~

Watch your thoughts, they become your words...

Masalah saya

Saya selalu takut dilihat sebagai terhegeh-hegeh....maka saya akan cuba bertindak cool...tetapi  ke-cool-an saya tu rupanya boleh dilihat sebagai tak berminat....adeh....~